Starting the Weight Loss Journey...Again.

Here I am again, needing to lose weight. Wanting to, even.

My weight loss journey began way back in first year university. I studied so hard, so much, that I didn't even think about what I was putting in my body. I gained what I like to refer to as my Freshman 50. Yep. There is no such thing as a Freshman 15. To me, 15 lbs would have been welcome. Not 50. That's so much! Ugh.

Throughout university I tried my best to get the weight off, but I had no motivation when all my energies were spent on school, and I really didn't even enjoy working out. In my fourth year, I joined Goodlife, and I actually started to like working out. I didn't lose much, maybe 5-10 lbs. I did find out, during a fitness assessment there, that I have a ton of muscle to work with. When I moved back to the island, we don't have a Goodlife, and I had no desire to go to our gym. It's small and full of protein pumped athletes that I only find myself comparing my body to. At least on the mainland there are a few people like me at the gym.

Between May and August 2010, I graduated university, wrote my RN and passed, got a new job, and got married. I had no desire to try to work out or think about eating healthy at that point. I was in a whirlwind of my new life, post university. Anyway, sometime in there, I reached my heaviest I had ever been, 196. On a 5 foot 3 figure, that not so attractive.

So, I joined Weight Watchers again, and lost around 30 lbs over a year or so. My motivation wavered here and there, so my weight loss wasn't consistant or huge. In Feb 2012, we went on a cruise and I put my diet on hold. I didn't gain any weight on the cruise (somehow), but I never picked up where I left off. After that, we started trying to have a baby. In June I found out I was pregnant. At that point, I had gained back pretty much everything I lost.

While I was pregnant, I gained about 30-35 lbs. Not too bad really, when they recommend you gain 25-30. I wasn't trying to be healthy, I just happened to not gain too much.

Right after I had Harper, I lost 20 lbs over 3 weeks. Now, I'm struggling again to lose the weight. I have 12 lbs or so to lose, just to get back to my pre pregnancy weight. That's pretty discouraging. Especially when I pumped my breastmilk, hoping that it would help me to lose it. I joined Weight Watchers again, since my motivation was at a high. The problem was, every time I was good, and stayed on track, I would lose my milk supply. I just couldn't keep up. I hated pumping, so I decided to stop.

Anyway, here I am, on my journey again. I look down at my daughter, sleeping in her swing, and want more than anything to be healthy for her. I don't want to be the parent that can't keep up. The one who sits on the couch instead of playing tag. I want to be the role model for her, that she deserves. She should grow up with a woman in her life who doesn't complain about her body. Who puts more stock in being healthy than being skinny.

So, that is what I'm going to do.

This post is part of Move it Monday's on The Domestic Wannabe.

Comments

  1. You are going to do it. That little girl of yours deserves it, and so do you!

    Thanks for linking up :)

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  2. Good luck! Just don't get discouraged, and you'll do great!

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  3. Good luck to you. What helped me the most through my journey was knowing that I was going to have a bad meal, snack, day or even week, but I kept going and didn't give up! The first few months are the hardest!

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